dis morning i ask him for break.. den he say anythin.. i tot when saying that i wil relax n haf my own freedom but it's hurt my heart a lots... mayb i still like him???.. but y i wil like dis kind of guy?? but not other guy which make mi touch n won't make mi disappointed n angry N LOTS MORE... ....
so i ask him to meet mi my blk downstair to gif him e cupcake cake which wan my "LIFE"... ... if i don gif him, who m i giving to rite?? jus throw away like no one wil no or appreciate abt it... so i gif him 8 cupcakes, the other 4 i keep it... if not i buy le den i no chance to eat like not worth lidat hor.. agree???
so i at staircase celebrat "BIRTHDAY" wit him.. when he c the cake, he like no reaction.. didn't do anythin to mi.. like a big thank u or wat lo.. hmmm... den i put a candle on top of the cake.. when he blow e candle, it relight again..wonderful isn't it?? haha..
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make mi plan a special birthday for him by going to waterloo centre which is near bugis area, order a cupcake cake for him as i wann to make it a differences dis year
^^^dis cake very nice isn't it?? but nice got wat use??..
ppl dun even no. onl waste my effort!!!
cos of dis stupid cake, make mi feel unwell... cos ytd 'he' say he will tak off n "prove to mi" n oso acc mi go collect as actuall wednesda is the date line of "prove to mi" tin, den in the end wat i get?? disappointment n angry but nothin else!!!
haiz. so i go to city hall to buy some "shirt ink" to design shirt for him.. den take bus 197 to bugis but in the end, i take wrong direction n just nice alight at my work place "Hong Lim Complex" ... den walk a LONG LONG way to tak other bus, so i took bus 145. suddenly feel head pain.. maybe is cos of the stupid sun!! n oso NO one acc mi!!
when reaching bugis area, i alight wrong place, n need to walk for long long distance... n tat time suddenly wish to vomit lo.. STUPID SUN!!!! hmmm.. den when i collect the cake,got some kind of "man zhu gan".. dunno y?? haiz...
but when i reached home ytd, its already 4plus, n yet, a concern of him, don even haf!!! den i sms him tell him tat i reached hm n guess he going to work ... n he sms tel mi 'NO'.. den fine, ok wit it if he don even concern mi!! but at night, don't even sms or wat.. making mi worry.. keep calling n sms.. even sms his mum..
but he 11 den reached hm.. i was so angry as he go out don even tel mi abt it!! wat m i to him actuall!! so i sms him tel him where he go, all he can say is ltr.. i was so fedup tat i say, i don wish to no n tc... few min ltr he cal mi n say he gone work, i was totally angry la!! go work don even sms tel mi, n his excuses is" hp going to no $, so must save" WAT E FUCK!! is his hp $ impt or mi??
sometimes i really curious is he reall like mi? i tin its fake!! who no?? onl he e one who no abt it!! n say, he went to the police station.. if not he can meet mi.. who wil believe??wat a joke.. if got the heart to come, no matter got go police station a not, stil wil come meet mi.. n he said he can't listen to my phone is cos tat he in police station..
i wondering in police station cannot ans phone meh?? excuses onl!! mayb ha wit other gal or other ppl den "bu hao yi si" listen to the phone... i reall dunno him.. he keep lyin n lyin.. n i tried of it!! n jus the date line is over, i tin we haf no fate to b together.. haiz.. n u no wat he say ytd??? he say saturday den "do" it.. WAT E FUCK lo..
y can't he like other guys??? once make ppl angry shld quickly do somethin suprise or make ppl won't angry... but he lei?? e opposite way of doing onl!!! is just like u haf a cut in ur hand, u must as fast as possible to make a treatment to e hand, if not it will getting infection or even worst!! dis example is jus extracly e same as tat...
i told him tat, but he seem to act blur.. den forget it.. i oso don wish to haf a stead like him.. i wish my stead can concern mi, wher i wan to go, he will acc, faithful to mi, won't lie to mi, make mi angry wil try to "hong" mi, n do some romance staff which can make mi shock or suprise... BUT "HE" lei?? alway mak mi angry, don even mak a romance staffs, cos of saving sms he don even tel mi where he go or watever fuck, lie to mi, n lots more.. ....
my feeling is just like dis picture>>>>
feeling very alone n lonely.. got stead n no stead there's no different at all.. having stead shld b happy n wish to maintain lidat.. but for mi, having a stead alwa mak mysel angry n disappointment each day.. haiz..
but secretly can say tat time reall can forget everythin.. so is relationship???... as i almost going to forget him... just onl a little step forwar onl.. but now, mi to him still got a little bit likes????.. but is less love den b4... last time so love him till mad.. silly rite.. haha..
mayb i won't tat sillly anymor le.. is not ur, wat for keep holding in the hand, rite?? n toda he don even call or sms mi, haiz.. stil say wil top up $ today.. in e end wat i got?? onl wil go n enjoy..i reall very sad... n i cry!!!
haiz.. my life reall miserable.. n he cal mi just now (at night) say he now wann go pasir ris park ALONE.. who will believe!!!!!! i don understan y he lidat treat mi!! even i say i wan him go hm, he die die must go pasir ris park, somethin reall fishy.. i can tel u tat.. he sure wit fren some where or wit his "GALZFRENZ"..
i can't trust him anymore..even i now angry, he wont even care abt it!!! jus enjoy his birthday.. his birthda very big la!!! den b it!! can feel tat i not impt to him at all.. n i no wat to do alread..break up!!!!! !!!!!
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