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mY daY wiT mY LovELY bOOk$ (pArT 5)

toda change location of study.. instead of bedok reservior e mcd, we went to bedok interchang e BK... n ppl oso chang??.. got yvo, yong quan, Zhen You & e guy whose eyes is so "mi ren"... can say is HANDSOME MAN!! i like tat type lo.. like ah bang but its not?? haha..

i don like study wit THEM!! very wat lo.. can't b concentrate on study.. thy keep talk, eat, play, smoke... haiz.. waste of my time man!!.. i listen to mi MP3 n quietly revise my staff.... thy so pro, can talk.. n e HANDSOME GUY so cute.. when he snezz. very loudly, can make mi laugh lolz..

den i quietly do mi tin.. den ZY say i like got "zi bi zhen"... cos thy so noisy... is i don wann say out to thm onl.. hmmm.. n u no wat.. i suddenl hate yvo lo.. ( i no i very bad).. she can go out wit guys study but he scare his dad don let as onl 1 gal wit many guys.. tat y ask mi along as an excuse?? ... tat wat i tin la.. as last time she won't ask mi along until his dad say cannot.. mayb i tin too much ba..

n i no one tin is tat.. when u reall like a guy u won't tin its disgusting if he eating very disgusting.. plus wat even he do, u won't tin its disgusting.. jus like JJ?? can c tat wat ever he do, i won't find it disgusting lo.. OMG.. i stil tin of him... mayb i won't 4get him 4ever.. as he's my first!.. but i tin he alrea 4get mi le.. den b it lo..

n now days i keep thinking of my grandfather.. i going to b mad le lo.. keep reflash e past... haiz.. i tin i wil b mad soon.. hmmm.. almost wann cry out in public loz.. but don haf.. haiz..

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mY daY wiT mY LovELY bOOk$ (pArT 4)

hi.. i post my blog again! 2nd time for toda.. toda went study AGAIN.. haha.. not fun at all.. is sianz sian sian..

when i study, its damn wat lo.. suddenly tin of my grandfather.. den... haiz.. suddenl lost my temper, n vent my anger on Zhen You.. he didn't angry.. so strang? mayb is reall is a gentleman.. but i don like lo.. hmmmm..

he so quiet after i vent my angry?? den i write words on a tissue pass to him y suddenl so quiet den he tel mi e reason .. den i realize i vent angry on him.. so i said sorry.. (which i don alwa say to others)..

aft study, u no wat he do?? keep e tissue as a special days(rmb e days)?? very wat lo.. e more he treasure e more i scare he like mi too deep lidat lo.. ltr hurt him too deep.. mm..

donno how to survi. on los.. mmm...

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O LeVeL$ PeriOds

long time blog lolz???.. o level going to end b4 MY BIRTHDAY!!!... ... donno on my birthday how is it like?? happy?? or like last time, sad n disappointed??.. who no.. n still rmb got ppl gif mi comments on e blog?? is my sister lolz.. lame rite.. haha..

let mi tel u abt e feelin of taking o level examz.. is DAMN COOL??!!.. donno how to do lolz?? eg lik A math P1 n 2.. P1 is difficult like hell, like didn't study b4 lolz.. n P2 is easy, but yet i donno how to do.. stupid mi rite?? no choice, who ask mi got a stupid brain..

next is chemistry paper, damn fucking easy till i got study e topic.. but once in e exam hall i 4got.. fuck rite?? sure fail lo.. n lastly is geography for dis week, which was ytd.... i got memories till... donno copy n paste which question lo..

i tin dis year o level sure retake loz.. abt dis tin, i talk dis to my father, n he say he don mind letting mi retak lolz.. cos i suddenly tin tat studies is so easy lo.. but now is too late 4 mi to study le... in future i wann b a strong in workin in anythings??.. haha.. thin thin onl.. don treat it seriously.. haha.. jus got sense tat i wil retak next year onl..

besid tat i got family stress!!!not jus mi, so is others relatives except my "AH MA".. cos is she e one gifing us all e stress.. haiz.. since my grandpa pass away, she keep tin we bad guys.. i donno y loz.. hais.. watever we do we must tin.. if not consequences is very worst.. n i'm e worst.. hais..

haf to go study now le.. can;t talk much.. contiune next time... ....

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mY daY wiT mY LovELY bOOk$ (pArT 3)

today study study study.. wan my life.. mayb going to retak again next year?? mmm.. today mak mi haf a strong sense of feelin tat Zhen You like mi.. if not true, treat mi BHB lolz.. i don mind,, =P

i reall can't 4get him.. mmm.. wat to do?? like not worth lo.. as he don even care or concern mi or bother to sms mi anymore, wat 4 i rmb him?? onl a fool of mi wil lidat.. wat to do?? i'm a fool!

n ytd i type my blog, got ppl gif mi comments lols.. haha.. so nan de.. but i donno who tat person.. e ppl onl written as "yoshinayo"??.. mmm.. thanks 4 comments lolz.. if reall can't find e target i wan, den b single lolx.. haha.. thanks 4 e comments lolz.. haha.

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AimiNg TaRgET foR bEiNg mY bOyFrEn..

today study study study, n still STUDY!!!.. WAN MY LIFE!! some sort of CHIONG LOLZ.. haha.. exam coming in 3 days time?? haiz.. no time left lolz.. heez ..

n dis few days keep on raining and raining, let mi remind of the past.. ytd i almost cried at e bedok reservior e bus stop.. really very regret abt it.. finally c through tat i reall love grandfather a lots.. how hoping he in dis world.. haiz.. hope i can go n c him..

n i tot keep on study wil 4get e fucking bastard liar.. but in the end, there's seem nothing change.. really miss him?? but when i tin tat he lie to mi lots of tin n wit his frens, make mi very fedup n heartbroken.. mayb time can reall mend everythin.. hmmm..

n i discover/ a 6sense tell mi tat Zhen You like mi?? very BHB hoh.. hope it not true.. but dis few days his frens making fun of mi n him.. so weird correct.. i tin i shld far a distance wit him.. if not if he reall like mi, i die le.. sure break his heart very badly.. mmm, if reall happen, i can b a heart breaker queen?? (i tin i tin too much le lolz..) hope it jus a dream..

today while study i c a HANDSOME GUY lo.. a dao dao look, so cool!!!.. but Zhen You said e look so "qian bian".. mmm, i tin i like a guy who look lidat?? jus like same as JJ??.. my taste very weird hoh?? no choice lolz.

if i wan to haf a boyfriend again..or husband.. i have aim my target...
-a strong feeling towards him

-a dao look?? cool look??
-not so tall?? taller den mi abt 15cm lidat??
-haf $$ to support mi??
-a job wit high salary?? or a stable job(don chang here n there)
-tin of future n his target or aims
-don lie to mi, truely treat mi
-NO two or many-timers
-NO smoking
-don b a coward!!
-his heart must haf mi in e first place, cannot alwa wit frens
-care, loyal, concern to mi
-mind n action MUST "auto", don wait ppl to say
-respect e elderly, don ask $$ from elderly but gif $$ to thm
-don make mi angry or unhappy wit anythin
-listen wat i say, even i wrong =P
-spent time wit mi??
-can b trusted... .... ...

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mY daY wiT mY LovELY bOOk$ (pArT 2)

today i study wit e same old person, same place n same motive again.. sick of my life.. now O level reall coming VERY VERY SOON!!.. i reall scare.. cos i regret tat i didn't haf much time left.. hmmm/.. must chiong all e way le..

haiz.. suddenly tin of my grandfather.. mayb i wil go visit him b4 my exam started ba.. reall miss him.. so hope tat he jus went missing or go some where else.. but not death.. mmm..

feel reall lonely.. very damn lonely.. mayb cos of single.. but i don like e feelin when seeing a couple so sweet.. mayb is cos mi n him didn't do all staff b4.. eg like outsid e public hugging kissing in e bus stop? send ppl hm?? or even acc his stead?? den mi lei??

very long didn't go out far wit him.. 4 abt 6mth?? fro e start of january??.. donno y wil maintain dis kind of relationship.. a untrue, frens relationship, i guess??.. how hoping i reall can find one who can support mi, won't treat mi as a fool or lie to mi.. can alwa b my side and true to mi.. but not findin an excuse..

mmm.. i tin i don haf e "fu qi" lo.. mayb i won't find another one as i lost everythin.. n i don haf e courage anymor lo.. treat my luck no good.. grandfather bless!..

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mY daY wiT mY LovELY bOOk$ (pArT 1)

today i study wit Zhen You again at MCD AGAIN!! sian... cos same place same motive..STUDY STUDY N STUDY!!! BUT won't study till "hou hua"???... i hope not.. but keep study reall stressful tat i can't stand it!!!got lots of tin to cover lo..

ytd night so late wake up plus midnight can't zZz n dis mornin wake up so early at 5?? cos meetin Hui Jean at MCD to study a bit?? reall feel like zzz lo.. reall very tired.. but wat to do.. O LEVELS COMING!! plus can 4get him for a time being..

during skol, we having a graudation ceremony.. it so e wat lo... fun?? lame?? nothin to describe.. but everyone need to go up e stage to tak a filo of our cert..

o ya.. 4got to tel u.. u no wat?? past 2 yrs, my roxy bag let ppl make a cut.. i no who e curprit n its Hui Jean told mi.. e person is can't b expected e.. is Joanna.. haiz.. donno y last time she do tat to mi.. it my preious bag very ex lo.. i really donno how to said.. haiz..

after skol we went study n i saw my cousin, Steph lo.. haha.. so surprise lo.. den we study awhile we acc steph frens go bb court but we play ourselves.. mmm.. reall is awhile den we go blk took a "puff" n went bk to MCD AGAIN!! sick of tat place..

study till 7.15pm, steph looked 4 mi n wan go hm together, plus i was headache tat time n yet i now den discover tat she talk a lot la.. keep askin qns make mi head more pain!!!.. i can't stand it anymore!!!...

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$uCh a NiC3 gUy oF tHeM, sO swEEt!! hOw hOpiNg...

today went out study again.. wit Zhen You at mcd AGAIN!! haha.. study from morning to night.. n e air con is damn cold den i can't stand on it.. den Zhen you tot of goin hm takin a jacket for mi.. so sweet lo..

reall enjoy mysel as in i won't keep sms him or send wrong to him??.. or even tin in the past.. if everyda lidat"jiu hao" le.. haha.. so can forget him better den keep wan to c him or wan to indepen on him..

but strang is tat when he didn sms or call mi, i wil keep thinkin of him plus wann to sms or call him..but when he sms mi or cal mi, i wil feel like ignor him?? donno y... mayb getting to forget him soon ba... haiz

when study abt evening, Xiang Sheng n Randal came n join us.. haha. when met them, we went to yummy dinner.. when walkin to e coffee shop, Randal talk to mi y i so moody nowdays.. den i said "where got? i always lidat e lo.." den he said i last time very talkative n cheerful n ask mi wat happen.. haiz, mayb is cos of my grandfather death ba.. i reall hope he went missing but not die,, haiz

n den went bk to mcd AGAIN!! mmm.. study awhile, Randal need to fetch Joanna fro tuition.. so sweet right? i asked Randal can don fetch one tim, den he say "bu fan xin".. so sweet of him lo.. joanna "zhen you kou fu".. must treasure dis kind of guy!! heez

n we study till 9 den we went hm.. don c Xiang Sheng very bad lidat, he actuall is so nice as he wan to send mi hm lo.. but i rejected cos "bu hao yi si" =P he so sweet lo.. even is fren oso so gentleman as he said guy shld send gals hm..

if HE same as e three of thm.. "jiu hao le"... i wil so happy like mad.. haiz.. but he impossible wil do tat.. but i can say tat dis three guy in future wil b a very nice n caring husband..

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hE wOn'T dO anYtHiN bUT CaPabLE LyiNG tO a FooL LikE mI!

i reall hurt a lot... hurt very deeply den b4!!!... ... i'm reall is a fool of myself by believing n trust him... he YTD stil said he tired of lying as need to hide here n there.. n oso said he wil not go out anymore as his mum said, once go out no i-pod n internet... n yet i believe him tat he reall wil change??... but i was totally a BIG FOOL... ...

today i stayed in skol wit hui jean study very late.. abt 8 plus??.. but b4 tat, abt 5 plus i got a feeling tat he won't so good stayed at hm but go out so i sms to tat bastard said where him, but he don't even reply mi so i called his mobile, no one ans.. after a few mins, he sms mi y i called him..den i asked him where he den he said he outside e house smoking n asked mi why..

so i felt very strange cos he won't b so good.. so i sms him ltr where he wil b going.. (in my heart how much i wish he wil said he won't go out) n he said ltr going to Katong wit QZ onl BUYING clothes.. who wil BELIEVE!!!onl a fool wil believe his lies!!!... ...

YTD still said won't go out.. in the end lei?? PUKE!! OPPOSITE way of doing!!.. if i won't asked him he won't tel mi! n i can sense tat he not at hm tat time.. so i sms him" since u now at hm haven go out rite? den use ur house phone call mi.. u dare!!".. den he didn't reply..

he didnt reply can shown tat all i sense is all accurate.. tat bastard liar.. i won't believe him anymore!! i not a fool keep letting him lie to mi.. YTD stil say if let him choose either mi or his frens, he will choose mi.. but agai n agai he lie to mi cos of his GANGSTER FRENS.. i reall "BU RU" his FRENS..

n he didn even bother to sms mi if i reach hm or bother to sms mi.. he jus didn care.. mayb he now enjoying wit FRENS or GALSFRENS.. who NOS!! haiz..

if not he wil enjoyed finish le den looked 4 mi n "hong" mi... don u feel very wat??.. is like i e "BACK PACK".. everythin is always i e last.. everytim said to him tat he didn care mi, he wil gif lots of rubbish n craps excuses.. haiz.. i reall tolerate enough.. i shld not care dis BASTARD as he don even care mi but saying all e lies.. he wil not realize how bad he broke my heart again n again!! until can't b mend.. i wouldn tust him anymore.. we shld end here..

treat tat i unlucky tat i met him which gif mysel a miserable n no trust in dis world.. wishing mi to 4get abt him ASAP!! n let him find a galz tat can LIE on.. but jus not mi can liao.. ...

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bReaK uP wiT tAT fUcKiNg bA$TaRd LiAr!!!

its hurts my feeling lo... n i break up wit him.. dis fews dayz he keep lying to mi... it hurt my heart very BADLY lo... past two days of the lies, forget it, lets talk abt today...

my cousin saw him at CS wit a bunch of "GANGSTER" frens.. ... den i sms him where he.. u no wat he send??.. he said he under his blk n going to TM.. wat fuck lo.. still dare to lie to mi.. FUCKING WAT LO!!! !!!... my cousin said he walk like a "paikia" lidat... ah beng ah lian... when i heard it i CRIED!!! cos i was so stupid tat i trust him e passed 1 yrs.. i tin i won't 4give him!!!!

ytd still say he wil jio mi bk again n stil say he love mi.... i don't tin there's a need!!!.. i don wan to c him again!!! if i c him, I WIL PUNCH OR SLAP HIS FACE!! HE DESERVE MORE DEN TAT!!! i wann get all my tin tat belong to mi can liao!!! as i wann burn it, so can 4get everythin.. so is tat BASTARD!!!

so ytd i lied to him tat i haf a stead, n i two timer him.. n the "STEAD" treat mi vry good.. no how to date mi out, go having yummy, n lots, more ... ... cos i wann act tat i "xin fu" but not sad without him.. n he not worth 4 mi to do dis!!!! !!!... treat tat i haf a invisible stead lo.. (i like despo 4 a stead)

at night i haf some call of "date" wit Zhen You n his fren at bedok there e mcd study n i took a "puff".. as i reall fan.. when go hm, i was so alone... eg just like in a bus, i was so cold, need a ppl to gif mi some warm i can lean on e shoulder.. but beside mi there nobody around!!! !!! n oso when i walk alone, no one acc mi.. haiz.. fate to b alone ba..

since he can lie to mi abt his frens.. can c in his heart i not impt at all!!! !!! so for e past 1 yr.. he like mi is all FAKE.. really fake!!! y i can't find a guy who can doted mi, WON'T LIE to mi (e impt tin)... mayb i stayed to b single!... ... if i wann stead, i b come les better... having an opposite sex is damn sad!!!

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tRu$T HiM?? HoW tO tRu$T??.. FoOL oF mI!!!

Today i meet him aft skol, but b4 tat i keep thinkin tat "wat if ltr wil quarrel just like last time how? n plus if he wil send mi hm, wil he go out jus lik last time??.." i reall hope my 6 sense wil not so accurate but....haiz.. i don like e feelings at all!!! it make my heart hurt jus like dis picture...

During my BORING skol lesson, it was totally bored to DEATH!!!... no one talk to mi except hui jean n yuan xin... the rest like treat mi as transparent... haiz. mayb my fate is not to mak wit frenz??? haiz.. forget it, use to it ba...

Aft skol i went n meet him, n we having a great chat???... but til i realised his hp got a photo which was taken on 29 septemb 07, at night around 10pm lidat... but tat time he said he was in the market.. don u tin he was lying???.. trust him got wat use?? haiz.. wat m i to him?? mayb its a toy or a rubbish!!!... who no???...

i serious talkin wit him, but he joke around.. n when his grandma n mum came in, he gif an attitud towards thm.. dis mak mi tin tat is i cause him to gif attitud to his family.. haiz.. i oso donno wat to say him.. actuall his family members dote him a lot.. but he treat them lidat.. i donno how to say him.. when i c him lidat, it hurt my feelin n my heart as y my stead wil lidat..

when i c his uncle gif him $20 he don even say thank u or watever fuck lo.. he stil got e face to take it n spent.. dis mak mi tin tat he a useless stead to mi.. can't even earn $$ n keep on lying to e surroundin ppl.. i reall don understand y he must lie.. but he keep delined tat he didn't.. i no his pattern lo.. lie but didn say don haf..

haiz, when he sending mi hm, he wearing like so wat lo!!! like going to town lidat.. he stil said he go walk walk.. but go stroll don need to wear until lidat e lo.. plus he said 10plus den reach hm.. WAT E FUCK!!! stroll need so long meh??!!! wann lie who?? so b4 i board in e bus, i told him, if i reall impt to him, reach hm b4 9pm, no matter wat.. if not i wil ask 4 break, n i'm serios abt it!!!! but he didn seem to listen to my saying!!!

now alrea 10plus, yet he stil haven sms mi.. CAN C I REALL NOT IMPT TO HIM.. n i tin i prepar to break oso.. i alread mean wat i said le... mayb tat e anding ba.. happy 4 him.. got freedom liao..

really hope i got a USEFUL stead, which can tin of e future, concern mi,
happy wit mi, save $$, din hang around, support e famil.. .. but he is e opposite side of it.. haiz..mayb going to break soon!!!!

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mY daY wiT mY LovELY bOOk$ (pArT 5)

n now days i keep thinking of my grandfather.. i going to b mad le lo.. keep reflash e past... haiz.. i tin i wil b mad soon.. hmmm.. almost wann cry out in public loz.. but don haf.. haiz..

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mY daY wiT mY LovELY bOOk$ (pArT 4)

hi.. i post my blog again! 2nd time for toda.. toda went study AGAIN.. haha.. not fun at all.. is sianz sian sian..

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O LeVeL$ PeriOds

haf to go study now le.. can;t talk much.. contiune next time... ....

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mY daY wiT mY LovELY bOOk$ (pArT 3)

today study study study.. wan my life.. mayb going to retak again next year?? mmm.. today mak mi haf a strong sense of feelin tat Zhen You like mi.. if not true, treat mi BHB lolz.. i don mind,, =P

i reall can't 4get him.. mmm.. wat to do?? like not worth lo.. as he don even care or concern mi or bother to sms mi anymore, wat 4 i rmb him?? onl a fool of mi wil lidat.. wat to do?? i'm a fool!

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AimiNg TaRgET foR bEiNg mY bOyFrEn..

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mY daY wiT mY LovELY bOOk$ (pArT 2)

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mY daY wiT mY LovELY bOOk$ (pArT 1)

during skol, we having a graudation ceremony.. it so e wat lo... fun?? lame?? nothin to describe.. but everyone need to go up e stage to tak a filo of our cert..

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$uCh a NiC3 gUy oF tHeM, sO swEEt!! hOw hOpiNg...

if HE same as e three of thm.. "jiu hao le"... i wil so happy like mad.. haiz.. but he impossible wil do tat.. but i can say tat dis three guy in future wil b a very nice n caring husband..

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hE wOn'T dO anYtHiN bUT CaPabLE LyiNG tO a FooL LikE mI!

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bReaK uP wiT tAT fUcKiNg bA$TaRd LiAr!!!

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tRu$T HiM?? HoW tO tRu$T??.. FoOL oF mI!!!

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